Summer fun

:D

Ermmmmm….i feel so much happier with my body today!. I feel like i can go out at uni and feel acceptable aka not like a beached whale!

Eeeeek happy times xxx

Erm hello

Major weight goal that just crept up and suprised me!

I wasn’t expecting it at all but dammmm it makes me happy!

*happy dance*

I reckon i know my ultimate goal now too. But i will definitely just see how it goes and play it by ear. I think i want to be 116 but not totally sure.

I reckon i would be more than happy at that weight though.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK i haven’t been this weight for such a long time and it makes me so so so so so so happy!

Im happy just to be carrying on and chipping away at the weight bit by bit.

:) :) :) :)

Hello skinny legs and arms :)

Im soooo happy right now xxxxx

I just LOVE the frail look.

Tiny little arms hanging off a waif-like waist. It’s gorgeous. But i don’t think i’ll ever look like that. I’m happy as long as i’m skinny.

Slender. Streamlined. Dainty. With enough energy to enjoy my life. This is my goal.

Control.

The time is 1:51pm

and i haven’t eaten anything so far.

Good times.

But i must admit that i feel the ‘lack of food mood’ kicking off a little. I’ve come to my bedroom so that people don’t annoy me :P
Not that the sound of burping, vile builders outside my window doesn’t annoy me. Apparently they still find viagra funny.

:P lol

ON the up side. I went for a run and walked the dogs earlier so its just my exercises that still need to be done. Also i have no plans for this evening, so a nice reclusive night to myself is on the cards. So i can wallow in my hungriness and feel happy about being empty whilst curled up in my bed :D :D :D

Tomorrow i’m off on a massive walk with my dad :) i love walking so i’m really looking forward to it! I need to make sure i pack my mini meals though otherwise i could be throwing myself off the cliff top hahaha!

I feel much more in control than i did this time yesterday. I’m no longer convinced that i’m going to put all the weight back on before i go back to uni.

Do not ask what the cat lady is doing at the side, but focusing on the cat, this is me today.

I have binged to the max.

So much so that i don’t trust myself to eat anything.

I won’t be eating anything tomorrow. Though will be doing exercise. Then i have a plan for the day after: 5, 200 calorie meals spaced out throughout the day.

I need to eat, but i need a plan to stick to. Since stopping the diet i have been like a woman possessed :(. I am seriously seriously seriously hoping that this plan will work.

I just need to take things a day at a time.

The thought of putting on weight scares the hell out of me. :( it really sucks.

I am going to walk to the shops and get some chewing gum tomorrow. Lots of it i think. It should help.

Fingers crossed. 

I have had a bad day.

A bad evening, when it comes to food. Coming off the dukan diet has ment that i just want to go wild, but i have a calorie consumption limit to stick to.

Consequently, i’v e been sick. 3 times. :S i haven’t been like that for a while so its not good.

But im writing on here to try and remind myself that every day is a new day. I need to relax and forget about it for tonight. And tomorrow i need to wake up fresh and start the new day.

I’ll go for my normal run, i’ll eat my planned meals, and i’ll have a lovely day.

I need to concentrate on the fact that i have 3 weeks left still until THE WEEK. I have made amazing progress so far. I have the right amount of time to lose the weight i want to lose. So i just need to take things one day at a time.

With all the running my legs are getting much more toned. The muscles will begin to keep my metabolism higher even when im stationary. Tomorrow i can enjoy lots of nice but healthy foods.

When it comes to the week i will be gorgeously slim, confident and healthy.

I have everything to be happy about :D :D :D

Lots of love xx

I have struggled so much today and ended up cheating with the diet. Though to be honest i think it is for the best. I couldn’t carry on with it anymore because of the lack of energy i had. I literally wanted to go to sleep as soon as i was up but then at night time couldn’t get to sleep.

Consequently, i am thinking of changing my plan of action.

I am thinking of a) continuing running and walking and exercising

b) maybe going to try a calorie counting system: 1000ish a day.

Still technically i would only lose about 4 pounds in the next 3 weeks. But i guess if it is easier then it is worth it???

I’ve planned my shizzzzz and i’ll let you know how it goes :D xxx